Wednesday, July 25, 2007

People make plans...God laughs

Is being a mom what defines me? Am I more than "just a stay at home mom"? There are days that I really struggle with these questions. Before I had kids I can't say that I had any clear goals as to what I would do with my life. I went to college and got a degree in psychology because it was interesting to me. But to really DO anything with that degree it would require me to get at least a master's degree. That was not something I was willing to do right after graduation. I just wanted to be done with school. So I started working with individuals with developmental disabilities and learned a lot about how much potential is in every person. I also worked for the state as a services coordinator. That was a job that I really enjoyed. I think that was something I could have seen myself doing for a very long time. But, my husband graduated from college and got a job offer in California. Due to many factors in both our lives right then I said "let's go". I didn't realize what moving so far away from family and life long friends would really mean. I didn't realize that my first year in California would be so lonely. It was very hard to make friends and I felt isolated, so I went out job hunting. I found a job working for the county of San Diego. Three month before accepting this job I found out I was pregnant with Liam. After working for 6 months at the job I knew the job was not for me. Actually that is putting it nicely...I hated the job, but I would not have changed the decision to move.
Now, after having two kids I still am not sure what is in store for my life. I think I may get a job working for the school district once Liam is in school full time. But whatever I do, I will always and forever be a mom. So, after contemplating I don't think I need to have a plan for my life. I once heard a saying that I really liked "People make plans...God laughs".
Thank God that I am a mom with two healthy boys.

1 comment:

Omaha Mama said...

A job in the school district is a great idea - your schedule would match your boys. But there's nothing wrong with being just a mom for a while. You should never put it that way! Just think how busy you'll be when you have TWO in all of those activities. They're luck to have a full-time mom.

(To add pics to your post, look at the top bar in your editing window. There is a square, if you hover over it you should see Add Images. Click on that and it should be self-explanatory from there.)