Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Conforming

I woke up this morning thinking about blogging. In my haze of tiredness I was thinking about how my blogs just aren't as thought provoking or entertaining as most of the other blogs I read. So I was thinking about how I could change my blog to better "fit in" to the blogging community. What I finally came up with is that I don't want to change my blog. I started blogging with the purpose of keeping family and friends involved in my life and knowing what I've been up to.
I've never really been one to worry a whole lot about "fitting in" because I feel like I am a good person most of the time and that people who know me and are friends with me know my true self. I have quite a bit of gray hair and I refuse to dye it because I feel that would take away from who I am. I have lots of relatives that went gray early on in life and I figure why fight heredity. I don't want to say that people who dye their hair are less confidant in themselves or shallow in any way. I think that every person needs to do what feels right for them instead of following one group or another. I think it's most important to be true to yourself.
I also don't really "fit in" with many of the mom's at school, because I find it hard to pretend to like someone that I really don't like. I'm not real good at keeping my thoughts to myself and I don't feel comfortable talking to another parent just to get gossip about someone else.
I find myself irritated at people who only pretend to be my friend and talk to me when they want to know something. It makes me feel like I am being used. Part of the reason that I know things others want to know is because I take time to LISTEN to what is going on around me. I also take time to join committees and boards so that I can know what is going on. I want to be one of the people who does something to make a diffence in my community. I get really tired of listening to people complaining about this or that and yet if you ask that person to join a commitee they say something such as, "what good would that do?". The only way to make change is to be INVOLVED.
So, since I am bucking conformism my blog will continue to be about things that are important to me and hopefully my friends and family. Hope you all have a great week.

2 comments:

A said...

Well said dear sister!!! I love you just the way you are and I love your blog. I am so glad you started one and enjoy hearing what you are up to. I know how crazy busy life is with kids so don't stress about how often you write, or what you write about...I will keep on checking in...who cares if you don't have a billion people reading? Like you said...it's for you, your family and friends. I think it's just perfect! Living in CA has got to be harder than many places...full of fake people trying to be someone they are not. So proud of you for staying true to yourself...you will never regret it. :)

Love ya!

Omaha Mama said...

The plastic people are getting you down??? Tell me who - I'll come beat them up!

Your blog is great. I'm proud of you for staring it and...ahem...would like to take full credit! :-)

Know that you are loved and missed in Nebraska. I always found talking to you very relaxing, like I didn't have to pretend either.

When you guys finally move back (I'm daydreaming here). Please move to Omaha!